I was saved when I was 29. When I was 31 I had an abortion. I’ve been haunted by this choice ever since. I have always gone to church but not completely followed God. This year I decided to fully commit 100 percent. Following all commandments .. abstaining .. etc. will I still be saved?

Shalom Sister,

I know it couldn’t be easy to ask this question, but I am so glad that you did.  First of all, let me say this: We don’t know who is saved and who isn’t. 

We can’t see what is in someone’s heart; only the Father can, and because of this, it is completely up to Him to decide whom He will save and whom He will not. There will always be people who “walk the walk and talk the talk,” but their hearts are wicked. Others might not “walk the walk and talk the talk'” in the way that we think they should, yet their faith is wholehearted.

So, we should always be concerned not just with our walk but also with the state of our hearts.  

Second, I would like to remind you, as well as everyone else that reads this, that when we repent, there is forgiveness and grace. We are ALL sinners, and learning to follow the Father’s ways is a lifelong process. 

Will we get it perfect? No.  Will we sin? Yes.

But just like Israel, who worshipped other gods, created idols, and broke just about every commandment, when they repented of their sins and turned towards the Father, there was grace, mercy, and forgiveness.

So, repent and turn back to the Father, and remember that there is grace, mercy, and forgiveness for you. Then you need to forgive yourself. You need to give yourself some grace and mercy. We all do things that we impulsively think are for the best but later regret.

The Father loves you, and it is not His desire that you continue to beat yourself up about this. Meditate on these life-giving words: “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” (Romans 8:1)

I am praying for your peace in this matter.

To our readers: The comments are turned off for this post because of the nature of the content.  It takes courage to ask these hard questions, and we want to support and love this person.

I hope this helps.


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Aliisa DeSalvo